Angry Letters to God || Love Letters from Him

They really were venting sessions and angry letters to God. I had a hard time speaking about my feelings, because I felt all wrong about them or that I would go to hell for thinking and feeling the way I did. So praying out loud about it wasn't happening. All I could manage to do was cry or scream into my pillow once everyone was asleep. I learned how to contain my emotions enough to avoid publicly crying. I didn't want to really TALK about anything because my memories said that TALKING about what I was thinking got me in trouble, or left people with that puzzled, tilt-head-to-the-side look.The truth is, I didn't want to live but I didn't have the courage to verbalize it. So I drew, but mainly, I wrote.

Ana EstherJune 2, 2017anger, suicidal, hopeless, pain, hurt, confusion, writing, journaling, vent, God, Jesus, healing, miracle, Leukemia, hope, love, peace, anchor Comments

Love is… BLIND?

True love cultivates a kind of mutual surrender that yields a sharpening of love within each vessel. 1 Corinthians 13 tells us that according to its true character, love will be patient, kind, protective, always trust, always hope, always perseveres and it rejoices in the truth.

It is when you have matured in love that you are able to love someone purely and truthfully – without the drama we have created because that’s what culture has taught us. Why? Because love does not envy nor boast. It isn’t proud, rude, self-seeking, easily angered, keep records of wrong nor does it delight in evil.

Ana EstherFebruary 12, 2015love, family, friends, relationships, bemadewhole, pillars, anaestherComment

God Loving Others Through Our Hearts

Loving our neighbor as ourselves means, being full aware of the wrong, but denying the right to remain angry or bitter, because the same grace that we receive and believe covered us and suffices for our weaknesses, suffices for them to the same degree.

Saying Yes to God means saying no to ourselves. It means relinquishing the natural humanistic response to pain and recognize the humanity in others. The humanity for which Christ died for. The humanity in need of God’s unconditional love, which calls to be reflected through us.