Somewhere in Between
Yesterday, I was on my way from Jersey to an event in NYC, where I had an opportunity to serve. I stood on the platform by the doors of the PATH train. As most commuters do on their way to their destination, we all rushed to the first seat we could find as soon as the doors opened. I caught a glimpse of a two-seater and went straight there. No one sat next to me. It wasn't overcrowded and everyone was minding their own business. That's rare so I counted it a blessing!
After settling down and journaling during that commute, I looked up and across. I noticed that above the two sliding doors I walked through just a few stops before, the numbers 7 and 8 were placed respectively. I chuckled and thought to myself, "How cute. 7 and 8. We're in the month of July (7) and getting ready to enter the month of August (8). And I'm right in between." I said that again to myself, "I'm right in between."
I took to Snapchat and captured the realization with a picture, but that sat with me for a little while. I thought about 2 Corinthians 12:9, "'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." And I said to myself, "There is grace in the between. There is power in the in between."
That inspired the poem I wrote this morning as I poured my heart out to the Lord. Let it be a blessing as it encouraged me to find grace in the "in between" and find joy on my way to "My Forever."
I'm somewhere in between
Door 7 and 8
July and August
Safe and Faith
I'm somewhere in between
Completion and New Beginning
Past and Future
The injury and scars from the healing
I'm somewhere in between
Blank canvas and masterpiece
Note and composition
Past pain and working peace
I'm somewhere in between
Thought and voice
Tears and laughter
Deafening silence and joyful noise
I'm somewhere in between
The purpose and the promise
Shaken and stability
Sinking ground and Solid
I'm somewhere in between
Letting go and holding on
It happened and I'm over it
I'm stuck and moving on
I'm somewhere in between
Tired and running the race
Overwhelmed and overjoyed
At Your feet and seeking Your face
I'm somewhere in between
Prudence and spontaneity
Humiliation and humility
My humanity and Your Deity
I'm somewhere in between
I'll go and it is finished
The manger and the cross
Sinner and without blemish
I'm somewhere in between
Where I started and the end
The curse and the legacy
The bleeding and Your hem
I'm somewhere in between
Where I went left and stayed right
My thorn and Your grace
My surrender and Your fight
I'm somewhere in between
Where I was and where I'll be
Who I was and meant to be
Your design and my destiny
I'm somewhere in between
Fear and Trust
Works and Worth
Spirit and Dust
I'm somewhere in between
Body and Soul
Infant and elder
Leaking and Whole
I'm somewhere in between
The darkness and Your light
My hurt and Your love
My wrong and Your right
I'm somewhere in between
Death and resurrection
Night 1 and day 3
Sacrifice and glorification
Endings mean new beginnings
But there is always an in between
It's called the process, the journey
Of what it means to be redeemed
I'm sure it's no surprise to You
I'm far from "all together"
All I have is "Not my will, but Yours"
The in between, before You, My Forever