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Grace Found Me in My Grief

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Grace Found Me in My Grief

“I’ve learned that grief, whether because of the loss of a loved one or loss of a relationship, it comes in like waves. Some waves you anticipate and prepare yourself for. Others come unexpectedly and knock you right off your feet, leaving you with scraped knees, completely disoriented and out of breath because of the near-death fight to stay above water. I can’t always anticipate a trigger. It can be as a random as a familiar scent or as direct as a forgotten Facebook memory (thanks - rolling my eyes). But there is always a way out (1 Corinthians 10:13) if we stay close to where our feet can be grounded. And hope and faith have kept me grounded (Romans 15:13).

Grieving the loss of marriage wasn’t something I ran to share about. But with this new season, comes the responsibility of facing and sharing, not just the joy of the Lord being my strength, but the painful realities of this journey. Many have made assumptions or tried to put two and two together, but ultimately, we both needed time to process without the well-intended but often misguided commentary of the public. And it’s still a process. I intentionally didn’t want to bleed on the ones that prayed for our marriage, prophesied over our marriage, hoped in our marriage or believed because of our marriage. Ultimately, because I still believe in marriage being honorable and beautiful, independent of this reality. That’s why I can genuinely celebrate those getting engaged, married and having more children. Family is beautiful. There is still hope.

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Being in Denial vs. Denying Ourselves

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Being in Denial vs. Denying Ourselves

"I have found that being in denial means you are pretending that what you see, feel, desire, think and/or want, doesn't exist. You attribute it to everything BUT what you know to be the reality of it. This is where we open the door to be caught off guard, disappoint ourselves and God, have unexpected outbursts and set ourselves up for failure. That isn't what Jesus is referring to in Matthew."

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Walking by Faith as a “Planner”

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Walking by Faith as a “Planner”

To us “planners” and “fixers,” faith is like a violent act of surrendered trust. It doesn’t come easy. It feels like an internal World War III. It is a tension between the conscious control of self and the unconscious want to control the outcomes.

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Great Anticipation vs. Great Anxiety

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Great Anticipation vs. Great Anxiety

It’s all about perspective. Walking by faith and not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7) can either be perceived and received with great anxiety OR great anticipation.

We often fear walking by faith in God because the prerequisite is trust in what we cannot see. It defies our logic and the innate need to KNOW what’s next. But we really just need to be certain of one thing, He got it ALL in His infinite wisdom and Sovereignty. He will order our steps according to His word and promises as long as we stay close to listen and follow His lead.

I consider my daughter anticipating a surprise I have for her. Because she KNOWS she is mine and I love her and I enjoy giving her the best, she has great anticipation for what she hasn’t yet seen. She has peace and trusts me because I’m mommy. In that same manner, I have great anticipation for what is ahead because I know my Daddy withholds no good thing from me (Psalm 84:11) and loves to bless me in ways I can’t even imagine because I am His and He loved me enough to give His life for Me… and YOU!

Excited for what’s ahead.

What is God asking you to trust Him with? Your health? A relationship? Your children? Financial stability? Educational endeavor? A new business venture? Your test is in learning how to shift your perspective from great anxiety into great anticipation and trust His leading.

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When Life Happens...

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When Life Happens...

Yesterday, my car’s battery died in the middle of pouring rain. An almost brand new Infiniti G37X, mind you. Haven’t had it for a year yet. A nice gentlemen really was trying so hard to get my car to start. I have roadside assistance with GEICO but he really wanted to help. So I let him try.

No matter how much he tried, my car wouldn’t start. We concluded that his 4 cylinder engine wasn’t strong enough to kick-start my 6-cylinder so all attempts were in vain.

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